The final, final stretch.

I chopped off all my hair and I look freaking adorable. More on that later.

It's nearly 3am. And this is it. Studying my ass off for the Macroeconomics final that will decide if I pass or fail. 75+ = pass, under 75 = fail. My track record is not a great one, highest test score has been a 68, fingers crossed on this one. This is it. If I don't pass this class, I need to scrape together 1000 dollars for a gen ed next winter or else I can kiss graduation in Spring 2010 goodbye.

One test, decides my fate.. that's so crazy. 4 tests, that is all that this class is based on. Had there been homework.. or at least one paper.. maybe even a few in-class assignments.. I would be fine. But, no. This class, like others that I have failed or passed by the skin of my knee, was purely based in tests. I have ADHD, my memory is horrible, I can study for hours, but I probably won't remember it the next day. I can review my notes in the morning, nothing will stick if I can't make it relevant to me. And monetary policies and reserve ratios, really don't stick out in my mind. I test horribly. And I end up in these gen eds where the entire class is based on a few tests. I have had quite a few of those this semester. Thankfully, in the other classes we had quizzes, in-class assignments, and presentations to save me. Not so much in macroeconomics.

4 tests. Should that even be legal? What are we learning from that? That we can cram a bunch of information into our brains for a test and forget it all once we finish? 30 little multiple choice questions. I need to work through problems.. I need examples.. I need some way of learning this stuff other than lectures and tests. Stupid class. Stupid, stupid class.

The worst part is, I didn't even need this class that is going to decide my fate.

4 tests. 3 days of work. And I am free for 4 weeks. I just need to get through it with all passing grades. At this point, I know I am passing everything else. Macroeconomics terrifies me.

Back to studying. I might get some sleep tonight.

Just maybe.

Update: I woke up. I went in. Most of the test, except a few questions, were on the review. Fingers crossed that I missed less than 7. I only doubted about 5.. I will pass this class.. I will pass this class..